i cut my hairr!!feel so much more better.. gort pizza fer dinner..then now watching rugrats all grown up. chnged song..frm dirrty dancing. =]

i suddenly feel very tired. tired of everything..everything adds up to more stress but ppl just think that im so carefree all the time. it hurts to realise that a few words can make your world come crashing down. it hurts even more when you try ta pretend like nothings wrong but inside, you know otherwise.

hahah.bit hyper lerr..cuz wuz crapping all the way home from kallang. =] won outram..kinda struggled a bit though. freaked out bout river valley now. watched them..theyre really fast. then small aisyah pon sch and game today. syid knew frm morning and wuz pissed off whole day. but in the end, she played well lar.

during assembly took my prize fer humans. hurhur..so stewpid. the "prize" wuz lyk lotsa post its. so lame lor..and its lyk..100ovr ppl get prizes. stupid.

stressed. dunno what coach expects frm us anymore. yar..we won. so? played sucky. got scolded. stressed like fuck. aiz- only thing that saves me is my retardedness..

its been a looong time since i blogged. way too long. fer a person wid stm, can barely rem anything dat happened. hmmx..sunday had training at bedok. made thnkew card fer auntie julie and all..gave it during dat training. she damn cute. taught me more stuff..coach's good moods with us sorta ended on sunday, she like kinda frustrated. mr.teo sent us home and monday in sch, wuz a zombie. jeez- everybody wuz like copying holiday homewrk. hahar. wuz a sucky start to the new term. results like shit. 4 a1/2s, 3 c5/6s and a d7 in chi.

think dat wuz why mon training felt all sloppy and all. coach made us warm up wid weights! ran 5 rounds in weights..bleaghs- and wtf..must go back ta hpb fer hep b 2nd dose! the damn nurse say take in sch lor..but not 1 month yet then must go back that place. then the times will keep clashing with netball...aiz-tues trained agn. coach went ta prc so more like self-training. small aisyah made thnkew card fer big aisyah. very nicee! =].BUT it wuz a sucky day. forgot ta take my keys and dad made me wait fer him from 6 till 7plus when he finally came home ta open the door fer me. ...

then today wuz sports day. watched eye2 before going ta the stadium..cow and me were screaming fer no freaking reson. haha..lalalla~ then trophies were pathetic as evry yr..gort 4 but broke one already! haha..when i didnt wanna run, cheong force me run..then when i gort hyper and wanted ta run, ppl dont let me run. smarrttt. hmmx..i notice ppl are like..crazy ovr radzi. hahar..and it seems im doomed ta be haunted by my neighbour. everywhr i go i gotta see his face. sick lar. make it worse..i see my class nerds so damn clever, make me stress also. starting ta stress bout nationals too. first game tmr. dont even know against what school.

finally got home. yest morning met up ta go fer the sec3 camp thing. they put me in first aid..haha. then went fer expedition. wuz fun lar..went ubin. wuz cooking along the beach when it started raining heavily. pitied the groups that came in late..didnt get ta have lunch cuz of rain. wuz totally drenched frm head ta toe even under shelter. which wuz pathetically tiny. aft the rain, thr wuz this one station whr each grp had ta get 5 of its members camouflaged into the surrounding. i volunteered. haha..they put black paint on my face and had ta hide with ren in a muddy area. finished the task but didn remove the paint..on boat back ta changi, took pic with mr.tan. damn freaky ta just see 2 white smiles next to a pale face..haha. first team back gort pizza fer dinner. -_-

aft washup and dinner went ta the wrkshop thingy. coach jude damn fun. haha..ren won 10bucks. haha..shallnt give details.. the 4 main personalities: D - just do it! I - YOU can do it! S - WE can do it! C - let's do it RIGHT! wuz already 10plus and didnt feel like going home mann. but we had ta cuz we didnt bring extra clothess. then today morning report ta bernard agn. mr.teo laughing at us cuz it rained the day before during expedition. cont with wrkshop. and omg..they having so much fun. and elroy even did the will hung version of she bangs in front of the whole level. not bad..haha. but we left ta join coach and all at seoul garden!! sadded at first but once we started eating, all the worries disappeared. haha..got "gifts" frm coach and ms.siti. ms.siti. bought each of us esprit towels mann..cannort bear ta use. so nice!!

wuz at spotlight looking fer iron ons to put on the towels and the most stupidest thing happened. syid got stuck between a pillar and rack..haha. some hai sing gerls were thr laughing also. and now..she calls ta tell me she went home but found her family went johor and now she got nowhr ta go so coming my house..hahar..

ran 2.4 today..11.24!!yays. =] shall aim fer under 11 nxt. actually feel like running at bedok reservoir. hahar..trained courtwrk and stuff. prc came ovr. coach stil angry at them. scary part is i think we've gotten it worse before but the diff is prc isnt used ta it. she wuz nice to us though.

aft training let went fer lunch with coach pearlene syid 2 aisyahs wl lx mardhiah and mr.teo at s11.coach really relaxed thr. guess she wuz taking her mind off the stress of coaching us. crapped a bit then went home..going ta intchnge, coach asked us make thnkew cards. well..asked me. but kinda dragged cow in with me. =] halfway talking, coach's bus came and she go run the long way, wan big round to the bus..so cute! hahar..

tmr shall go fer camp! hahar..more like just fer expedition and career wrkshop part lar. expedition! haha..dunno why im feeling hyper suddenly..

a girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. she asked him if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. she then asked him if she were to leave, would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. she had heard enough. as she walked away, tears streaming down her face, the boy grabbed her arm and said...you're not pretty, you're beautiful, i dont want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away... i'd die..

went the royal crowne plaza placeee..haha. not say the food got a lot of variety but it wuz damn filling. ren and syid were having like competition..see who eat more. ren win lar. duh- hahar..before that, trained at coach house there, she forgot whr we training and wuz on her way to SCH when we called..haha..then made us run around the track 10times. we believe its 4km total but she says otherwise. then cuz of one really kaypo guy..had ta race up the stairs to a hill 3times. stewpid cow so slack..coach made me chase her. slack kinda training but learnt stuff larr..kinda half-begged coach ta follow us go fer high tea.

met at tampines mrt..cow wore heels! *gasps* haha..legs so long aredi, so tall aredi..still wanna suan us. all the sec4s so gerly..cept lx lar. hahar..ate and crapped around. coach joined us and we were talking ta her when the manager or somebody told us they needed the table fer other guests..so that wuz our high tea! went far east walk walk..managed ta get a present fer my dad. his birthday coming up ler. bought earrings! haha..

then today..training at prcs. wuz extra early mann..got there like 7.15? felt weird, didnt know what ta do..so i like loitered aroud my old house till almost 7.45. when i went in all the prc ppl like staring at me. so extra lor. then watch them run 2.4 while others stream in..we also had ta run. ran inside..we were given 14 rubberbands..then finish one round drop one rubberband. good way to keep track actually. think maybe different ground or what..evrybody timing quite good. all between 11-13mins. =] training a bit weird though. coach like not happy with prc. then like bias towards us. in their sch somemore. did some defending courtwork then played game. i played defender! hahar..first time. defending is funn..haha.

aft training met the camp group ta make flag. wpend an hour at spotlight just choosing colour of flag. aft arguing so long..decided to eat. then another agrument on whose house ta go..ended up going hanan's house. and not bad..we got the flag done. almost.

now lets see..tmr training..thurs sec3 camp. but we just going fer expedition..trekking! heard its at pulau ubin. then fri..coach call us go down ta seoul garden fer lunch. yays.! hahar..but aftwards still got training at night lar..got the fixtures fer nball lor. playing with river valley..outram and chong boon or sth. nationals will be ovr soon..sec4s will retiree..what would i do without yp!

watched dirty dancing yest and runaway jury today..haha. dirty dancing wuz at lido. kinda got stuck there fer a while cuz of the heavy rain..wuz walking around hereen..looking at pink shirts fer syid! like ren says..itll probably be a waste of my money cuz she'll nvr wear it..but you cant blame me fer trying to make her gerly. hahar..kae..dats lame. wuz a nice night out lar basically. then today met ren fer movie. saw wan ling and hw..hahar. the tallies..

tmr training. think going crowne plaza aft that..just see tmr how lar..

impossible is not a fact` it's an opinion.

here i am..alone at home while my parents are out at swensons! so bad..go w/o me. wuz at tpjc..had long jump. got bitten by several ants..but it wuz fun! then ran 2.4 with mr.teo,wanling,ren,coww,pearlene and syid. ren beat me!! hahar..but all of us 12plus onli..quite good considering we haven run lidat fer a long time.

wuz gonna go home but in the end decided ta watch soccer match..tpjc vs mjc. we were there so extra. like pretendin ta be jc1s. hahar.lame lar..got bored of the game so we were talking crapp. sorta like bonding lor. me, coww, ren, syid. =] 3 blackies and 1 whitie. then there wuz a nice rainboww..so long nvr see one.

then yest gort our trophy mann..in front of sch..haha. some talk going on about us going fer high tea at crown plaza or sth..mr.teo really is a great teacher i/c. we take him fer granted too much mann.

lets see..what else..common tests are over!! bio wuz a killer and as fer evrythin else..who cares. got 2 days break before our week of training begins. shall enjoyy!!

heyy. won damai!! hahar..not say totally psyched but its exciting ta be able ta tell ppl we won damai again and e-zone champs again. haha..somehow wuz able ta jump kinda high today. so happy..on the bus, i wuz shell shocked ta find out the score. 34-14. omg..goal diff of 20. wow. 2yrs in a row. hopefully next yr can make it too. =]

wuz in control..some sort. supporters were really great..as they were cheering go dmn, they started like chanting and somehow we also like sped up. that was the bad part. yp damn pro. hahar..dunno what id do w/o her next yr. prc wuz great..they make poster "go dmn" haha..looking all cute in their uniform..haha. this yr the trophy is so much nicerr..not like last yr's "biscuit". tmr getting the trophies in front of the school. aft we got back sch, went ta ljs with some of the girls and mr.teo/mr.tan/mr.sum. on the way saw tpjc ppl at mcdonalds. saw the small melati..hahar. got home eat some more..best stress reliever evrr.

won tkgs!! they like aredi gave up..last quarter even put non-main players..28-11!! =] got back ta class ppl dnt believe we won them..hahar. but mr teo not happie cuz of some other stuff..feeling the stress of being future cap. maths test wuz okay. kinda. then went ta train at prc. gort indoor court..so good. their floorboards were lighter coloured so even though their hall smaller it still seemed bigger. ahh..whatevr. their school may be small but its nicer. period.

so excited. finals 2yrs in a row with damai. we're fated mann. =]

another long time since i updated. sat finally had a real break..sunday trained in sch in the morning. at first it was okay lar..then aftwrds like..sian. think everybody sick of so much nball. so coach was pissed..aiz- ta chill, we went bbt shop aft training..chatted with mr.teo..he sent us home. wuz tryna cram fer common tests but fell aslp fer 5hrs. =/

and finally today..the game we've been preparing so much fer. tkgs. omg..wuzn really scared, till it strted raining. but thank god. tkg cant play in wet conditions! we leading then 15-6 i think..2 quarters only. the other 2 will be played tmr morning cuz the game got postponed. which is stupid. considering we were playing in rain so much heavier that we couldn even see through. cant wait fer tmr.

been a long time since i updated..usually cuz by the time i got home from training id fall aslp as soon as i hit the beddd..wed went ta hwa chong jc..went prc first then prc and us went hwa chong. prc is really damn nicee. but the parade sq veh small..and prc players are obsessed ovr long xin..hahar..the hwa chong players were good..really. kenna hit at the jab area. coach wuz really pissed. thurs also same thing but at kallang and we were playing with raffles. dunno abt prc but we were really off form. bleaghs-

then thrs this malaysia trip thingy. last yr we were supposed ta go..in the end got cancelled, fer i dunno what reason and this yr, maybe we cant go. the team..99% can lerr..aiz- then turns out prc cant go cuz of music test thingy. so even if we can go, itll be ex cuz thrd be a huge bus fer so few ppl. i wanna gooo!!

anywys..today sports heats. hahar. must have surprised ppl. heard most ppl quite confident cuz heard nballers gort training then nort gonna participate but coach cancelled today's training so went dwn. wuz excited at first lar..but when the time came, wuz actually reluctant ta run. ran 1500..sto0pid syid last min ovrtake but nahmind..we all were still hyper aft running cuz 7 nballers participated, top7 all nballers.. =] javelin damn tyco. final round 3 tries..twice fault throw but i still get trophy..like last yr. haha. crapp lar..then long xin so pro..javelin first 1500 first..high jump also so gd. so sickening. now left long jump!! looking fwd ta that..

oh oh oh..common tests are coming!! time ta mug..

mann..went fer hep b immunisation first dose at hpb..omg. was just sitting there, totally unprepared and the nurse suddenly jabbed the freakin needle in violently! that was at like..4? now my arm is soreee..aiz- intended ta go down watch the girls actually but dad said dont go, so i was like, what the heck lor..pearlene didn go either. =]

twisted my ankle during pe in the morning. was playing basketball..must have tripped ovr guojun. he fell, i fell..*ta da~* twisted ankle. was okay at first but its hurting now. got a feeling running may be a problem..just fer the ankle, bought strappal. damn ex lor..

and mrs sim was stressing us in bio. she showed the results of her 03 bio students. of 80 students, the distinctions and passes were higher than the national average, lowest was 1 stupid c5. mann..pressure ta do well lor. o.O then we were discussing prac i think..she started talking about how in jc, her friend dissected a female rat and found 7 foetuses stil squirming..eeyer. but the way she tell the story damn cute. haha..she herself is damn cute!