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It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...you give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets inside you and rips you apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love.

- Sandman:The Kindly Ones, Neil Gaiman.

a sleepy sunday afternoon. here i am..online. instead of studying.. -_-

bwhahah. met judith and belinda ler.! haha..belinda very sweet looking. before they came up to me, irenaeus and me were actually thinking that judith look like gary. haha. didn`t know it was her then lar. judith got same shoes as irenaeus. but comparing the 2 pairs, irenaeus` one is the newer one but the more worn out one. haha.

to me..today training quite boring. played so little games.! coach split us into 3 "teams". if i remember correctly, i didn`t get to play with prcs. the others got..i think. the rgs girls damn pro lar. as always! i think the whole "sneakers juniors" were rgs sec2 girls.

*siGhs* wan ling actually had an extra ticket for tonight`s nsl game. but in the end, i decided not to go. wish i had gone to that nsl game.... -_- i was gonna go.. but then i realised 1) i would be the only sec2 among the other 7/8 sec3s. that would be awkward. and 2) they brought home clothes to change into. meanwhile, i didn`t. was sweating in my freakin netball gear. =/

hmmx. made me think. how come our 'b' girls, sec2s and sec3s are still so...distant.?

anyways, spent the whole morning in school. total crapp lar..not much work on the art done. talked crapp with ms fudlana. and for the next 2 days..i gotta study!!! later-

i`m all smiley today!! haha. finally got a chance to go back to loyang!! =)

in the morning, for the first and last time ever, i went to school with syida in the morning. haha. the aces [according to syida`s sis: All Children Excersing Simultaneously] thingy was so crapp. when we did the kickboxing thing, we were kicking each other.! haha. even ms siti was doing it. she looked so cute.!

then we had our normal lessons till assembly. woah- this year the performances was quite good. haha. saw buk performing. i must have been blind or something..cause i didn`t get to see faidhi.. *aaww...* damned camera only scanned over the performers only.. the music was so nice and all. but suddenly..heard fahmy sing. =/ musta been stage fright. poor guy. we were downstairs and the people were boo-ing.! ting yuan said he sounded like got constipation.

after performances, we sec2s gave our frames to mr teo and ms siti. =) haha. then we stayed back to take some pics. haha. mr teo`s baby due in one more month.! haha.

me and syida went back to loyang with pamela. maybe it`s just me..but i don`t like that subaida girl. =/ she acts as if she knows me so well. -_- met fatim, lin, man and janice. woah- seemed like forever since we were last together. =) lin, fatim and janice are like..very girly.? with the make up and sitting with the legs crossed and all. and comparing them to me. haha..im a gone case. when people saw me, their first reaction was "omg..you`ve turned so dark! last time you were tanned..now your totally burnt!" haha. so crapp.

mr ang blanjah us 6.3 peeps. then we sat down and just talked till 3 plus. we were counting the number of people that went back and 6.3..out of 40 pupils..31 went back! haha. amazing. following that, i went to play some basketball. met more peeps..made new friends and all.

haha. loved today.. =) anyways, tomorrow must go kallang train.. *siGhs* and i got art in the morning. seems as if i barely got time to study. die. -_-

another mood swingy day. haha. in the morning, i was totally pissed off for no reason. and thank god for the rain. calms me down a bit i guess. but later in the evening, i was cheerful as heck.

we decorated the photoframes and all. =) finally.

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, I`m called a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love, I`m called a bitch.
When I speak my own mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, I`m called a bitch.
Being a bitch means I won`t compromise what`s in my heart.
It means I live my life my way.
It means I won`t allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and I speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone`s maid.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am..
It means I won`t allow myself to be anyone`s idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, determined and opinionated.
I want what I want and there`s nothing wrong with that!
Try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me
You won`t succeed
And if that makes me a bitch, so be it..

I embrace the title and am proud to bear it!

B = Babe
I = In
T = Total
C = Control of
H = Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a woman

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything

bwahahah~! seems like basketball guys are gonna be a part of netball girls` trainings ler. haha.

they`re damn fast mann. picked up the game within first quarter! haha. but everytime we wanted to block them, they would move away. haha. then it was damn easy for us to pass the ball. the first shot by the basketballers was damn nice! rui cheng shot a nothing but net from the top of the circle. =/ and davis damn cute. haha. blur as heck. no wonder shing ee like. heEz* match made in heaven. haha.

after the game, coach asked mr tan if they could help us in our trainings by coming down to do passes with us. he agreed. that`s why i say they`re gonna be a part of netball girls` trainings.

hmmx..turns out the archery thing ms siti was planning for us during the september holidays are gonna have to be cancelled. =/ coach wants us to train everyday. *siGhs* so crapp. no time to enjoy holidays. thank god exams are coming. least we can get some sort of break. jeez- next week common test ler and i haven`t studied at all..i even lost the timetable of the exams. crapp.

tonight can see mars right.? i wanna see lehz. but i doubt i will be able to stay up to see it. =/

maybe saturday got game with prcs.. =) finally can meet judith/belinda. haha.

2 words: dead. tired.

*siGhs* but still..i`m looking forward to tomorrow`s basketball boys vs. netball girls game. i could have sworn that yesterday at the basketball training, they were practising some netball. haha. davis - the stupid shortie. he better watch out.

woah- don`t like my new seating arrangement. missing my ex-group members. and plus, the place is freaking hot! -_- not to mention elroy`s constant singing..jeez- it was funny at first..still is, in fact. but it gets damn irritating!! curse that elroy! stupid asshole squirted water at my ass during ipw. for the rest of the time, i was walking around the library during ipw, as if i just had my periods.
-_-

sickening, sickening, sickening..irenaeus took my money. crapp lar. so much for trying to save money. she went to buy some photoframes to decorate to give as teachers` day presents for some teachers. said she didn`t have enough money.

anyways. was talking to radzi after school when something happened. and i felt like, so left out. at the same time, i was so sickened by her. why does she have to act that way, esp. when she`s around guys?

i wanted to shoot with clarion so i borrowed ms fudlana`s shirt cause i forgot to bring my own p.e shirt and the bookshop was closed. it`s pretty big so i folded up the sleeves and hey, it wouldn`t look so bad if our netball jersey was something like that. pretty cool really. compared to looking like we`re celebrating national day every time we train. for some unknown reason, i decided to suddenly run around the netball courts with eirene. i guess there was a sort of freedom in running around the courts in an over-sized t-shirt and skirt. haha. it`s like so fun to run just for fun.

things didnt get much better. was looking forward to meet him but i couldn`t find him..*siGhs*

jeez-im stuffed.! haha. pizza 3 days in a row..this is the life mann. =)

im still obsessed about guitars.! waiting for my birthday! *eRherMx~* you know who you are.. bwahahah..

nowadays..seems life is only about work. everything is work. parents working their butts off..why.? wanna earn money. students become hardworking..why.? they wanna do well for the common tests. we all training hard..why.? we wanna win next year e-zone. so crapp. what`s the point mann. excess stress for nothing.

how i wish i could take a break as and when i wanted.!

crapping again. *siGhs* feeling so mood swing-y!! -_-

the only comfort..got people willing to listen to my crapp and stuff. thank god. watching legally blonde again. funny how it always lifts my moods up somehow. just such a cute movie. =)

`nuff crapp said today. somebody save me..

I love you like a fat kid love cake
You know my style I say anything to make you smile

The down-to-earth girl

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i`m so happy~! haha. i finally tried the cheesy cheese pizza. haha. nothing special about it..but it was damn salty lar.

the geog lesson was pointless. ms fadillah can`t even control one class usually and she tried to control 2 classes today. =/ therefore, it took 2a/b 25min just to settle down. after that, 8.30 then we started the geography. and after 8.55, ms fadillah say we had to end class. total waste of time.

after geog, me, rui long and elroy went to do our geog project in the art room. haha. then i learnt how to play a guitar! =) im so happy!!! i can now play the first verse of "if we hold on together" on guitar. hmmx..i think i should join guiter ensemble.

watched "tale of 2 sisters" with dyn. pathetic. but still..the ghosts popped out from nowhere so it was still damn scary. screamed for fun too..haha. dyn got so scared she was hiding away from the screen. bwhaha. first time i saw dyn so scared. especially by a movie. then finally tried the cheesy cheese pizza. haha.

i love you!! thnkew for the dinner, yeah? =)

tomorrow got geog supplememtary. *siGhs* having it with 2b.

dyn's back to her crapp of going swimming going swimming! lazy to ge lehz..... better get back to doing my chi compo..supposed to hand in today. but i didn`t. hopefully, can finish by tomorrow..

i miss you..i rarely see you anymore..let alone your smile..

oh yeah..wanted to complain!

tomorrow my chi class peeps gonna watch homerun! not fair!! it`s a school outing so the school subsidize till it`s only $3! i wanted to go...but i got training~! why..why..why?! *siGhs*

hmmx..lotsa stuff happened at yesterday training.. maybe not lotsa stuff. just one big stuff. =/

we were just there chatting around when coach came. then she was in a pissed off mood. while the rest of us waited at the porch/atrium, she talked to some of the juniors..scolded them and all. then syida told me they spread fake story about coach. jeez- as if saying 'sarah slapped me' wasn`t enough, they even dare to talk crap about coach?!

aiyorx- tomorrow coach will decide what she wants to do with "the culprit". [i shall not mention names. for fear of hurting their feelings and embarassing them] *siGhs* then heard 'cause of her..another guy was pulled in. he, apparently as the culprit said, "helped check up coach background". but he said he didn`t and also said he`s willing to help the culprit. what crap mann.! then chiew ching also says mr.b still investigating a bgr thing.

so much crapp in netball this year.

anyways, today.. i overslept again.! bwhahaha. woke up 6.40. thought i was gonna be late anyways so i took my time walking to school with musa. then just as we entered the gate, i met up with syida, ren, lee shyuan, yi siew and mardhiah. haha. syid say she come by motorbike then when she got off, all of them staring at her at bus stop. bwhahah.

d&t that time. didn`t let cher see my folio. =/ so totally incomplete.! but we had to hand in anyways. so it`s like, tomorrow we'll get folios back. hopefully i can catch up by monday. in school..heEz* fahil very cute worx! haha. always show his stupid smiley grin. and ikmal thought i was hemma. -_-"

just now i stayed back in school to do the geog project with elroy/rui long. suddenly i find out jeremy also joining our group. so crapp. aiz- and only me, elroy, rui long are doing the work. sickening.

heEz* new layout..i like! haha. spent so much time on it, my eyes strained already. tomorrow then update..

im gonna kill elroy!! stupid ass! abandoning me..same goes for madhu too. *siGhs* wasted my time today mann. rui long had taf so it was reasonable for him. but elroy, madhu? jeez- at this rate, we won`t be able to finish our art ler. crapp.

ahh. whatever! then during art yesterday, we wanted to paint our box. didn`t have paintbrushes so we were gonna use hand. and it was acrylic paint, so we didn`t wanna get our hands dirty. therefore, we used garbage bags with holes in them? bwhaha. i had to find scotchtape so when i went to the other art room to ask for it, sec4s were there. =/ and the guys went "woah- new apron arhz? bwhahah" they were laughing like hell mann. maLu*

and during training, coach got pissed off at the sec1s 'cause they didn`t come even when they were free. somehow, the drills were more fun 'cause we were putting in 100%. haha. and coach wasn1t screaming her head off. says tomorrow she wants us to do proper courtwork without 'forgetting' what we got learn. no fair!! mr teo said trainings was only monday, friday. but somewhere along the way it suddenly got changed to monday, wednesday and friday? no fair, no fair! *siGhs*

before the training, before the english remedial thingy, mr teo had an emergency meeting with all the netballers. regarding our discipline and blah blahs.. =/

today..crapp. wasted my time at the art room helping the sec1s while waiting for clarion to finish detention. danial also had detention and i realised his stare is damn scary~ very creepy looking.

ff damn cute lor. =)

mr peters saw aqil`s baby pic. haha. says he looks damn cute. speaking of aqil..heard he`s no longer gonna be council trainee. bwahaha. misbehaving too much and too rude to his teachers. instead raushan will replace him.. maybe. haha. yay~! bwhahaha. no more bias councillor trainee. heEz*

bored as hell..watching rugrats..haha. after that will do some homework. *hate d&t.. followed by spongebob! bwhahaha. wish we didn`t have to train tomorrow..

hilarious: you are as funny as the cheekiest guys
in class and know everything thats happening on
TV and all the hot places to chill. you aren't
a typical bubblegum princess, you pride
yourself on your musical picks and your
attitude. sometimes you get carried away and
often get scolded for that, but otherwise if
people want to have fun then you're the person
they'll come to! you can be as girlie as
britney when you're in the mood and as hard
assed as pink when you want. your mates love
you for being so; fun, interesting and
unpredictable, you go girl!


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just got back from pesta sukan! so wasted~ just 'cause we lost one game to st.hilda's [by one point some more!], we didnt get into the second round. =/

that was for dunman1. dunman2 lost to damai b div. as for the juniors/dunman3..kenna thrash. lost all the games. haha. just like us last year. so many memories, the times when hanis was still in netball. when mr teo said "remind me never to take part in pesta sukan again. haha. said he says the same thing every year. but the organisation really sucks. is it fair that if we're playing with st.hilda's, one of the umpires is from st.hilda's while the other one is from another school? obviously the st.hilda's umpire would be bias against us. *siGhs*

then after the first round, we went to the squash area there for the de-brief. following that, we went back to the courts to watch the 2nd round games. woah~ i just love to see rgs play. it was rgs c div against damai b div..but rgs was obviously doing much better. lotsa times, anna made great saves! no wonder she`s the captain. she`s my new idol!! =) and i must buck up to shoot like janelle.

hmmx..yesterday had the parents-teacher-meeting. jeez- i went there late. with lati. when we got to the canteen, bernard came to us then say "i didnt send yal to leadership camp for yal to come to school in jeans." how could he even say that when they didnt specify what we were allowed to wear. we just thought as long as we got a school shirt!

after the long talk. parents went to meet teachers in the atrium. even worse. *siGhs* dm looking for my parents? crapp. wonder what`ll happen if he calls my parents up.

heEz* getting paid soon? =) bwhahah. my eyes have gone red..i need sleeep!!

i loved today's training!! haha. one of those rare trainings that we have fun in. i wanna try centre!

had my chi oral today. this time was the first time i feel quite happy bout oral. haha. i was 2nd in line and i could actually hear zoe talking. so all the words i didnt know, she made it clear for me.. =) haha. and before that when she gave me the paper, the teacher gave me the teacher's copy! so i got to think about what i could say for the discussion question! bwhaha. so damn lucky!

yesterday was supposed to be my 'rest day' but i ended up going out with lati and dyn anyways. at first dyn just wanted to have lunch so she put her stuff at my house then we called lati. but after lunch and after collecting dyn's bag, they refused to leave my house!! so they hanged round till 6plus, till my dad came home. we were crapping and excercising. haha. dad decided to blanjah us dinner and instead of using the money for dinner, we went bowling. haha.

reading yesterday's post..and i`m like: --so what if im 50kg? aisyah's 61kg!! bwhahaha. ~hctib i`m e-v-i-l.. =)

this sunday's pesta sukan still on. coach almost didnt wanna send us in. said it would be a waste of the $240 admission fee for the 3 teams.. so excited, i cant wait. haha.

im heavy!! *siGhs* just now after the physical, we took all our weights. and im over 50!! =/ --why am i so heavy?! an im only 161cm tall? mr teo said that as sportspersons, we are all slightly overweight. e.g if one is shorter than 163cm, her weight should not exceed 50kg! looks like i got a new-found obsession...

other than that horrifying experience with the weighing machine.. physical was fun! as usual! haha~ when we started, the sky was already overcast and all. so when we were sprinting, it was drizzling slightly. it felt so good to be sprinting in the drizzle with the cold wind blowing right at you! then we used the weights and skipped in the atrium. haha. people must think netball girls are crazy, train like hell for a competition next year!

hmmx..while walking to the bus stop, cleo was complaining about aqil..again. aiyerx- stop complaining to me!! at first, it was fun to laugh it off and all..but now it gets so bloody irritating! then i suddenly saw buk. haha. says he made something for me during d&t.. -_-

today, we also had geog test? --i must buck up in my studies. i must buck up in my studies. i must buck up in my studies. oh, crapp~ for the pesta sukan mini competition this sunday.. we have to reach kallang by 7am! =/ means we all gotta wake up at 5 plus if we wanna take public transport. *siGhs* but on the bright side..

tomorrow no netball!! haha. the only day this week that is free with nothing! yays~! haha.

food for thought: after you act at the spur of the moment, and when you've had time to yourself to think it through, why is it you always end up regretting whatever you've said or done?

wHeEee~! haha. still a little psycho! the aftermath of yesterday's hyperactivity yeah.. =)

the inter-house netball..discoverers first!! bwhahha..again. but it wasnt really fair? all of us discoverers were netballers. haha.

*siGhs* nothing else interesting lar. =/ hmmx..

it's not easy being a girl.
you've got to make hearts and break hearts;
especially your own.
are you the only one my heart is ever willing to reside in?
do you know what i mean? do you really mean all you say? is it true? i don't know.
if i let you go, will i loose all sanity?
i don't know where this train is taking me.
it keeps going through dark scary tunnels;
bright sun-shiny days, dark, cloudy, rainy afternoons..
bringing me to you.
i can't belive how stupid i am.
believing all my childhood fantasies will someday come true.
it seems so immature, so foolishly me.
i know the rainy days in my life doesn't out number the happy moments.
but i just don't know where this train is swerving to now.
it's moving to the beat of my heart, i guess.
they say the grass is always greener on the other side.
question is: which side?

i overslept today!! =/ haha.

just now..we had training. least it was supposed to be. but coach was sick, so we just had physical. i dunno why i love physical trainings so much. there's one more on wed. so stressed out mann. exams are coming again and we still got netball 2/3/4 times a week. seriously, i think my grades have dropped..a lot.

*siGhs* first thing in the morning, overslept. but then during geography received good news. i didnt do so badly after all 'cause ms fadillah decided to be more lenient. =) BUT..then we got back our maths. i failed. by 2 marks! jeez- i must buck up!

hmmx..tomorrow got inter-house netball. they might as well just make it a netball players only thing 'cause they always get all the netballers to represent the houses anyways.. what a pointless activity. =/

this whole day today..i dunno why but i was feeling... hyper? haha. very ridiculous really. throughout lessons and stuff, i was dozing off and once out of class, i just had so much energy to burn! haha.. and today was one of the few days i was being extra lame! but it's better than sitting in depression, yeah?

hmmx..i accidentally closed the 'favourites' that coloumn and then i saw my blog..it looks weird! especially 'cause the right side is like, so empty!

i need a new layout!

yest national day!! haha. wish i had seen the fireworks mann.

just now i was watching mtv when this sean paul song came up - like glue. and i was thinkin like, half the people dunno what the hell he's singing/rapping! haha. yet, his songs got this catchy tune to it that sticks in your head, like glue. =/

Well enough likkle girl dem bought they own dem got di goody goody
One ting mi haffi tell dem Dutty got di woody woody
Frontway backway Dutty K man have di shooby shooby
Virgin dem waan gimme and mi have to tooky tooky
Hot girls outta road dat seh dem see mi see mi
And a tell mi seh dem have somethin fi gimme gimme
How much a one night dem all a dream bout di jimmy jimmy
Dem a promise and a tell mi seh a fi mi fi mi
But a promise is a comfort to a fool, so cool
Well yuh dun know seh dat man haffi rule, di school
We nuh pet dem just wet dem up just like a pool
And a dignitary we haffi use up mi tool

Well I don't really care what people say
I don't really watch what dem waan do
Still I got to stick to my girls like glue
And I mon nah play number two
All I know the time it is gettin dread
Need alot of trees up in my head
Got alot of damsel in my bed to run dat re-eeeddd!!!!

I don't know why my heart flips.
I only know it does.
I wonder why I love you, baby.
I guess it's just because
You're so square.
But baby, I don't care.

i feel so ex. parents dealing with the agent. =/ alvin is a nice guy. haha. first time i can talk to a chinese guy easily.

oohhh..i had so much good food today!! and i feel so proud of myself and netball. =)

the uniformed groups did their parade thingy. prize winners had to assemble at one side. so sickening. couldnt see the uniformed groups at all. halfway through the national day speech, sadiq fainted! so poor thing!! he was at the first row. i didnt really see it but yean ping said he fell face down.. =/ so poor thing!! imagine falling flat on your face from such a height. but during the party hour, he seemed to be ok..

after the observance ceremony, speech and blah blahs..was the cca recognition thing. haha. i got award!! loLx. so paiseh! srinand missed the name of the guy in front of me. so it was like "for netball outstanding performace: ashwini rana" and this basketball guy walked onto the stage. bwahhaa~! follwed by me. haha. so stupid. and i let syida take the e-zone the $500. =) can get our money soon liaoz..haha. when i got back to class, sean teased me, said the whole prize-giving disrupted by me. haha. also said aqil very handsome. =) but it only made me think of sad things.. *siGhs*

mr peters bought the pizza from pizza hut. shiok!! we had chocolate cake..pizza..nuggets..sausages..finger foods. but three quarters of the time, i was eating from other classes and walking around. stupidly fun! haha. and i still didnt get a pic with buk.

after dismissal, me, syid, lati, dyn, renaeus, clarion, most sec3 seniors, dedrick & haryanto group plus aisha, nadiah and alex group all went downtown east for bowling. alex play damn pro! haha. first game can score 100 over mann. then when he smile, so cute! haha. then me, lati, dyn went to watch daddy day care. joel, kenneth and alvin also joined us. the babies were so cute!! especially the one playing eddie murphy's son [forgot his name]. haha. cannot get over it!

dyn came over again. it's becoming almost like an everyday thing for her to come over. tonight, heard the property agent guy is coming over..so that parents can sign the paperwork..

hah~! almost failed science..expected.

still waiting for maths results though. and no one told me they could go check for the marks first. if id known, id have checked with mrs wee ler.. *siGhs*

yesterday..had physical training. woah- damn tired!! sprinting only. after that, i found out im gonna receive a prize tomorrow! =) haha. outstanding something for netball, not sure what. =/ so i went for the rehearsal lar. after that..waited for lati and we went out.

just now after school, netball girls met at 2.10 to go to toa payoh sports hall. but dunno why, we only left school around 2.30? then we waited for bus and mrt, blah blah. 'cause of that took us 1hr plus just to get there! by the time we got there, it was already 3.50. we only got to see the last quarter. singapore versus malaysia. sheila, long xin, nadiah, hui qi, xue ying were the 'cleaners' of the court. haha. so cute!

to judith: "yeah..i was holding the yellow flower."

just now, went to borrow buk's long pants. haha. lemme go try it on. =)

wheEee.. loLx. so its confirmed. im gonna move house! again- haha. this september. seems just like a birthday present? haha. we probably [not confirmed!!] gonna shift to the condominium near the loyang flyover. haha. so exciting!

but then again, it is ironic. weve only just moved to this apartment like a year ago! the disadvantages of a foreigner, i guess.. if my memory serves me right, ever since i came to singapore when i was 5, ive lived in like, 6 houses. now that were probably gonna move, make that 7! its so amazing. 6/7 houses in 8 years. i wonder how many more there will be.

besides the moving thing, there aint nothing much happening. unless of course, the rumours count! but regarding that, no matter what, im not agreeing, nor am i disagreeing! =/

this afternoon, i took my science test, the one i missed 'cause i was absent. and that was when i realised that i have a really, really poor memory? just 2 weeks ago, i could remember all the lenses crap..and just now... =/ i wont be surprised if i failed. another thing was maths test. jeez- mrs wee made it so difficult! left so many questions blank and what's worse is she says there wont be a retest. *siGhs*

after the science test, went for lunch at long john. with...i shall just say people. on the way home, i was in total euphorical bliss! haha. my heart was racing and i enjoyed every moment. after that, dyn came over again. she wanted to play with my remote control racing car? haha. were so childish. then we went for dinner at white sands..asked syida along too. ate at magic wok. haha. quite nice mann.

and i just realised ive lost interest in being crazy about arwan! haha. but i saw him just now and it came flooding back that he's the sweetest little thing alive! *aawww..*

2e/f lost. jeez- 2d are getting big-headed! =/

dyn and lati came over. had instant noodles for lunch. and lati managed to deep fry some fries? haha. after that we left for the game. ooh- accident!! bwahah. lati wanted to tompang dyn..but as they were cycling, suddenly, they crashed onto the curb! haha. and ouch for lati, she got hit at an *erHerM!* sensitive spot? loLx. and the bicycle tire..burst. loLx. was laughing like hell even though she was injured! and the 3 bitches of the sec1s saw too..and started laughing.

after that..went to the bicycle shop at white sands to get a new rubber thingy. =/ bought dinner and when i got home..i felt like crying. *siGhs* must be due to periods..mood swings again. but still, its like a depression that strikes me out of nowhere..
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hmmx..maybe i`ll go join the boys at their so-called practice later.

back from shopping?

we went all the way to queenstown: queensway shopping centre. we were supposed to meet at 12..but as usual, me and dyn were late. haha. so we only left pasir ris at like 1? loLx. then was the half hour plus train ride all the way to queenstown. poor dyn..aaron aziz getting married? haha.

when we got to queensway shopping centre, we were greeted by a load of shops. way too many. haha. we went there solely because dyn wanted this adidas flat shoe kinda thing. we went a few rounds tryna find the shop with the best price. and when we finally did, the lowest price was 66 bucks.. but as luck would have it, it was 2 sizes too big for dyn!! and the other prices were too high. so she ended up getting her another pair of adidas shoes for 49 bucks. me and lati forked out 20 bucks each and dyn only had to spent 9 bucks. =/ after finally buying her a shoe, we went to eat at macs.

after which..we left queenstown. we were actually thinking about going to far east.. but dunno why, we made a change of plans and headed to that paya lebar shopping centre thing anyways. my first time going there, and woah. the this fashion there is like, big. haha. but kinda empty also. so we kinda took the opportunity to make each other try on different types of clothes..we all all tried on sleeveless tops and mini-skirts. loLx. dyn actually looked really sweet but she didnt like it. on a sudden feeling of girlish-ness, i bought 2 sleeveless tops and a skirt! haha. my first non-school skirt really. jeez- i dont even think i`ll really ever wear it? was trying it just now..and i find it like, a bit funny..weird. so maybe i`ll take it to altering before i actually wear it..

anyways..our next stop was around tampines lar. at tm..lati bought the khaki pants she wanted from u2. then we went looking around for more stuff. and i saw fauzi and fahmy. haha. when going to the op and levi's shop, met buk. they went to a birthday party at macdonalds? loLx.

had dinner..and was going to the interchange. but as usual, it was either me and lati go together while dyn go home alone or dyn and lati go together while i go home alone. at first, was thinking maybe i could go with buk? but then, by the time i got to the interchange, he left already. =/ so i decided to go home alone lar. but..lati just had to make me pissed off. aqil was at century..collecting his specs with his sis. and lati wanted to call him to send me home. sure..thoughful..but he was with his sis for god's sake! why trouble him? so i went off on my own...

it was already 8 lidat..but i didnt feel like going home. so i ended up walking around pasir ris town park and downtown aimlessly..on my own. got myself a drink. and i got caught in the rain. almost as if the weather was reflecting my pissed off mood. reached home soaking wet.

amazingly, my parents didnt comment on what crapp i bought or how much i spent.

i was thinking, thinking, thinking, while walking in the rain. it's such a great feeling to walk in the rain.. it "washes away your troubles" haha. crapp really. but still, i love it when it rains. when i was changing in my room, the wind from the park was blowing in some of the rain..it felt so good. it should rain more...i wish it would. it makes me feel so much better. and maybe..im too petty, too short-tempered. *siGhs*

oh my god..is he hot or what? loLx. ashton! ashton! ashton! *dRooLs..*

loLx. just sent syida, aisyah and ren home about an hour ago. they came over for lunch with dyn and just to chill. haha. before lunch, we went bowling. haha. me, huda, ren, syid, dyn and hanis. aisyah and shing ee didnt wanna play? the way we play is stupidly pathetic. loLx. but we had fun, so who gives a shit?

dillon/darren and dedrick's "of course" thing is getting old and really getting on my nerves. =/ it's already damn old lar! get a life!!

now..im waiting for the speech day parade thingy to finish! its so weird that all my good friends whom i talk i lot to [other than netball girls] all happen to be in the parade. sickening. all of them joined uniform groups. *siGhs*

hmmx..seniors went out with mr teo? eating lunch together, then followed by a movie if possible. actually thought wanted to join them since heard maybe mr teo blanjah but then we 'spared a thought' for hanis and dyn. haha. - so thoughtful of us, yeah? - loLx. oh yeah..apparently, rafika 'apologises' to me? o.O my junior came up to me and said "rafika wanted to tell you that she's sorry. for talking bad about you and all" that was a surprise..haha.

rem. i was sick..well during hip hop fest, i shared a drink with lati and she showed signs of falling sick too. and today she didnt go out with us cause she wasnt feeling too well. *get well soon~!*

now i'm in over my head with something i said..completely misread, i'm better of dead!