-bLeaGhz- *ignore my previous post, the amy, haikal shit.

today was the first day of term 3. *arghz* damn, i gotta sit right in front of the form teacher.

this morning, i actually planned to meet buk at round 6.45am. *bah!* he was late. haha. hmmx..spent a boring day in school. time table's been changed so now we got art on monday!! *sighs* new art teacher: fudlana. she made us do caricatchers or something like that today. thank god mine didn turn out so bad. haha. the new geography teacher is ms siti's friend. they're both so cute. and they talk to us like we're lower PRIMARY. haha.

then i quite enjoyed training. haha. feeling sort of crazy. wednesday: got a game. i still dont have enough money to buy all the birthday presents. lati, aqil, dyn, renaeus and clarion. heLp!!!

the story begins when amy and haikal are in the car, on the way to somewhere. lovers who quarreled a lot. amy was an over sensitive girl and haikal had his own ego. when they fought, both of them never knew how to admit their wrongs. to put simply, both of them were stubborn.

they are in the car, arguing..amy just found out that haikal and her best friend-cum-housemate, ita, were ex-lovers. amy feels cheated and they have a major argument, both of them yelling at each other. suddenly, haikal notices something on the road from the corner of his eye but it's too late... *cRaSh!!*

haikal obtains major injuries and so does amy. old memories of amy and haikal flashed past..that night, haikal gave his last saying on her lap..he died on the spot. the flashbacks were all amy had during her coma.

during the epilogue, amy felt so weird and sometimes all the characters around her disappeared all of sudden.

still as sleepy as ever.. but more glad. =)

i realise i have a tendency to think the worst of situations. i didnt have to sorry so much about aqil. and coach's return today wasnt so bad. damn modem!! yesterday it suddenly spoilt. for no reason at all! and now i gotta use the main computer, which is SO troublesome for me.

lemme think what happened yesterday...

woke up damn damn daaaaamn early - 7 plus! and all thanks to my great friend irenaeus... and lati came back from m'sia thurs night. so yesterday morning me, lati, renaeus, dyn and syid went to wach c.a2. it rocks! seriously a chick flick. haha. it was about 1 plus when we got outta the cinema. dyn and ren went home..syid met her mum, sis and arwan so she went with them. arwan is so cute!!! haha. somehow while renaeus was getting him to walk, he fell down and his reaction was so cute. that boy is a precious little kid!! and his birthday is coming up..27 july, same as lati actually.

back on track: meanwhile, lati and i went for lunch. she came over actually. had a lot of girl talk while watching double vision. the killings were really g.r.o.s.s.. -bLeaGhz- we managed to get a last minute ticket for lati.

and the night was spent at drama night. i didnt think our school actors were good but surprisingly, the shows were quite entertaining. and i have to say..i HATE the dance people. stupid bitchy girls who have a rivalry with netball girl. get a life! and i really think that aqil is so sweet. =)

today training coach wasnt so bad. hmm..quite enjoyable? we managed to watch hong kong vs. sg. the game rocked! haha. sg thrashed hk 22-66. so fun!

okay..now im gonna wait for star movies to show from hell..

guess its 'cause of what happened yesterday. last night i couldnt sleep at all..sms-ed buk till bout 1am+ and only fell asleep around 3am and i woke up at 10+ to catch up with some homework. damn, im tired.

trained again. thank god coach isnt back yet! i could barely concentrate and all and it was pretty obvious, especially during ballwork. im hoping so much that the nationals will finish as soon as possible. sort of like the one thing im looking forward to.

oh yeah..tomorrow's drama night. what should i wear?!

guilt.

If I told you how I feel about you
Would you say the same
And if I wrote it in a letter
Would you keep it or throw it away

I never thought I'd feel the way I'm feeling lately
When everything you seem to do just drives me crazy

Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away

You told me how you feel about me
Cos I did not know
If you said you'd fill my heart with all your loving
Til it overflowed
I don't know the way you feel but boy I'm hoping
I always used to hide a way, but now I'm open

Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away

Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
(How to take my breath away)

Take my breath away
Take my breath away
(How to take my breath away)

Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away

why is it that i seem to cause touble in his life. almost always..

i turned down an offer to play badminton with seniors just so i could go out with him. *sighs* from 2pm..i had to wait, wait and waaaiittt for him. i didnt mind that, finished some of my homework, kinda productive actually. but still, is it right to make a girl wait 1 hour 55 minutes just to go out with a guy?! but i cant complain. id do anything to be with him.

we spent time together walking and bowling. for once, we actually had a lot to talk about and when we did run out of things to talk about, i didnt feel uncomfortable sitting in the silence. but. blah blah.. [blanks i dun wanna fill]

he lied to his mother..said he was out with guys but one of the 'guys' called his house and his mum probably found out. im not quite clear on that either. and his mum is pissed off at him again. it seems i cause a lot of tension between him and his mum and he's not that open about. it'd be much easier if he were. *sighs*

"im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. very very very sorry."

Death of a Rose

The first petal picked has little meaning. Though for some odd reason, I smirk watching the now lifeless colour of red drop to the floor. Little is my thought about what I have just done, letting life die by the pluck of my fingertips. Even though it was not in thought, not realized, not even put to be evil hearted, I have already done it.

Yet again, I pull another petal from the rose. That smirk of mine fades a little, realizing just then, that I am upset with someone, something. Realizing that I have yet to fully find out what is upsetting me, my smile turns to a frown. The next petal plucked from the life filled stem drops to the floor. This time my eyes follow it down, locking to the swishing petal as if it really is nothing, but for one split moment, it's everything...

All memories of my past flash before my eyes. Good, bad, whatever they are, I remember them once again. For whatever reason, I try my best to push them out of my mind, let them fall to the ground like the petals I keep plucking from the rose. Not saying a word, not saying a thing, not thinking a thought. Though it is I who could imagine pain, hurt, warmth, all of it, it is also I who has felt it, touched it, and craved it. Yet, I find myself asking why. "Why me? What did I do now? What can I do to fix it? What can I do to make it better?" I ask all that when I know the only answer is HONESTY... People hate being lied to. People hate protection. But yet, no matter where anyone turns, someone is always doing it.

When will I know if someone really cares, I mean honestly cares? When will I get to feel the first hand experience of love, life, touch, feelings, all of it? Or is it something that will always be a hopeless dream. A dream that I hope to one day, never wake from.

So now that I have made it to the final petal, I pause before plucking it off the stem, close my eyes, and take a deep breath in. Why? Because I have just been hit with a bad case of reality. One that everyone tries hard to avoid. Hidden secrets, tales, adventures, loves, friendships. I have never wanted something more than my breath at this moment. Even though that won't fix what has been broken, it will fix my frame of thought till that point, that moment, that very second.

Now that it has finally hit me... Where do I go from here?

im home from bowling. angeline, yean ping, me, irenaeus, dewi and pei wen. for once, i didnt lose. =) overall, can say that ive had fun..sort of. suddenly feeling down now..why? i dunno.

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close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


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im back from dinner with my parenz. hmm..just got an invite to go bowling again tomorrow. i should go. least ill have something to do. ha! ju and ik break up already. that wasn't surprising. something 'bout ju starting to think she don't really like ik as in really like ik. whatever that means.

Love doesn't come when we want it to.
Love doesn't go when we want it to.
Love just happens.
Whether you want it or not.
Sometimes it may be the wrong person.
Sometimes it works out.
But whatever it is, we cant do anything bout it!

that is so tru..
and i realise that im really a person with too much free time on hand! everyday, i surf the bloody web and find quotes on love and stupid quizzes to do and then i continuously edit and post and republish on my blog.

hmm..fell asleep just now.

training, training, training. just now, it was really damn slacked! dewi was in charge of us at school. first things we did was fitness. 5 rounds warm up..2 sets of sprints..followed by 2.4km run. and then it was back to sprints, knee lifts, back kicks, step-ups, sit-ups, push-ups and jumping. somewhat surprisingly, i had fun.
after fitness was when the slacking started. during ballwork and all, everyone was too relaxed and when mr teo came to watch us sec2s, he himself joined in and was laughing along with us. *sighs* and our game with the seniors was pathetic!! messy like shit. players running helter skelter, absolutely horrible! and the nationals are next week!

ive got mixed feelings that coach is coming back soon. not quite sure when though. hopefully, next training (this thursday) will still be with ms cheng. somehow, we learn more in many ways. perhaps it's 'cause she doesn't pressurize us a LOT, the way coach does.

proof that ms cheng may be better: when coach tried to teach irenaeus 'bout the GK stuff and all, she couldn't get it at all. but under ms cheng, irenaeus improved tremendously within a day.

think my fitness has dropped or something..feeling damn tired now. maybe before thursday i might go back to the botanic gardens..question is, with whom?

You're a cat - the sexiest halloween symbol.
You're very laid back about the whole thing but
you feel most comfortable at this time of year.
you'll do anything for a treat!


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20 Words That Can Change Your Life

bEgiN
Take charge of your life by beginning something you've always wanted to do. If your goals seem overwhelming, start small. "By daring to being the life you always wanted, you become energized."

iMaGinE
Your imagination has no boundaries. "Dreaming about something is the first step towards achieving it."

LauGh
"Laughter is the direct route to your soul. It broadens your perspective, keeps you healthy, and makes an unbearable situation easier to deal with."

beLieVe
Set your mind to predict success. Tell youself you WILL succeed at whatever you're doing at the moment.

sEeK
Allow yourself to grow by exposing your vulnerability and insecurities. Don't live strictly inside your comfort zone -- don't always play it safe.

pLaY
We can always find something that 'needs to be done' and we forget how to have fun. Make a conscience effort to take time off -- you'll feel refreshed and able to think more clearly afterwards.

tRuSt
You can't grow if you don't trust your inner voice. "Being paralysed by indecision is worse than making the wrong decision."

LisTeN
Try listening carefully to the other person's point of view first, without being preoccupied or distracted. You'll really hear what is being said and the other person is more likely to pay attention to your views.

cReaTe
Creativity maintains the balance in our lives. The more we use our creativity, the more it develops.

cOnNeCt
Relationships are what pulls us through the hard times and make the good times more meaningful. Take time to nurture the connections that uplift you.

toUcH
Humans need touch to survive and thrive. Don't forget to hug your loved ones. Pat your friends on the back, literally and figuratively.

foRgiVe
Forgiveness is live-giving because it puts you in charge. You become empowered.

pRaY
"Prayer is asking God to transform the situation and become the heart of your life." Take time each day to nurture this connection.

hoPe
Hope is what sustains humanity. "Hope is the knowledge that even in the worst of times, we can triumph over hardship and sorrow and grow in spirit.

cHoOsE
"We can't always choose our circumstances but we can choose our attitudes towards them."

aPpReCiaTe
Admire the good in yourself and in those around you.

giVe
Happiness involves giving freely to others.

rEaD
Reading removes boundaries.

wRitE
Words are freedom. Words are power.

ReLeaSe
"Avoid doing something just because everyone thinks you should. Give yourself permission to relax."

i decided to make the fonts smaller.

watched cody banks with raihanis.. =) melati's back from camp and he's back from m'sia =)

Lose/Win people bury a lot of feelings. And unexpressed feelings come forth later in uglier ways. Psychosomatic illnesses often are the reincarnation of cumulative resentment, deep disappointment and disillusionment repressed by the Lose/Win mentality. Disproportionate rage or anger, overreaction to minor provocation, and cynicism are other embodiments of suppressed emotion. People who are constantly repressing, not transcending feelings toward a higher meaning find that it affects the quality of their relationships with others.

lots of meaning.....

anyways, im still as tired as ever.
he's coming back tomorrow 'cause his uncle wanted to stay in m'sia longer. missing him so badly.. everyday..

anyways, all thoughts of him aside, i went to the botanic gardens with elroy and rui long. damn that place, so bloody far!! haha. but we still had fun. however, note to self: never ever go out with elroy. woah, damn malu!! somehow, me and him were wearing the same design of giordano jeans. then he went to buy the same stupid bag that me, syida and renaeus have. what could have been worse? there we were, walking through pasir ris and tampines wearing the same bloody jeans and carrying the same bloody bag. what could be more embaressing (i still dunno how to spell that, btw.)?? and throughout everything, rui long kept teasing. he happens to have some crazy ideas. and now, elroy is out at the choir bbq, probably gonna be there till after 12am. lucky choir freaks.

oh yeah..last night's game went quite okay..almost won our seniors. we got 3rd out of 4 teams. *pathetic* 2 dunman teams and 2 bedok teams anyways. hmm..coach is coming back soon and yesterday was her birthday. today is clarion's birthday, just remembered. happy birthday!!

now watching harry potter on hbo..i want the new book!! anyone who has it, can i please borrow?

tomorrow i can sleep all day! and eat and sleep and eat..heaven.. =)

You are Peppe Le Pew: (without the smell)
You are a lover. Romance, flowers, and wine are all you need to enjoy
yourself. You are serious about all commitments. A family person. You call
your Mom every Sunday, and never forget a Birthday. Don't let your passion
for romance get confused with the real thing.

What is love?

Love is..
What makes a weak man brave.
And a king step off his thrown.
Good times, bad times.
Easy times, tough times.
It comes in an instant.
And lasts three days after,
Forever.
That's what love is.
- missing You*


damn tired!! sleep deprived..cranky!! later gotta go for the mini-comp. *a million sighs*

Let me be your umbrella,
I'll shelter you from the rain.
Let me be your teddy bear,
I'll hug you when you are in pain.
Let me be your hanky,
I'll dry your tears away.
Let me love you,
And I'll never go away.

home from a tiring day..

woke up at noon. =) but not before people called me at 7am, 8am and 9am. *stupid people, disturb me only!* then slowly took my time to get ready, was outta the house by 1. met irenaeus and dewi..bumped into yean ping, angeline & co. then we went to kallang together..was 2.40 when we reached. then started training at 3, all the way to 6. after training, waited for the bloody bus for so long! then, i went to white sands to buy some food. and here i am, at home.

tired!! and the only real food i had today was 2 curry puffs when i got home...

tomorrow training at kallang in the morning and there's a mini-competition at night! *sigh* and he went to m'sia this morning..starting to miss him already.

I NEED MY SLEEEEP!!!

My right to say what I want
And think the way I wanna think
My right I wanna speak my mind
My right to yell, my right to scream
My right no one's ever
Gonna tell me what I have to do
I'll live the way I want
I don't care about your little world
And I can't believe you're telling me
What's good for me
How do you know what's good?
And I can't believe you're telling me
What to believe
Get away from me - my right
No matter what I do
To you it's one big mistake
Well I'm sick of you I know I'm right
You sleazy money grubbing fake
My right, my life, my soul, my mind
My body and my existence means
That I don't have to listen to you
It's my right cause I'm a human being

something interesting..i have to waste my time while waiting for melati to get home......

im back from camp! im back from camp! im back from camp!! and ms siti is the new netball co-teacher-i/c =)

it was so much more fun than last year's "fun camp", way more fun! last year we had to train and all but this time, it was more relaxed. the games were sort of boring lar..but we still had fun. and the food was much better. during de-briefing, mr teo was telling us that this year, we spent at least $600 for this camp and usually we would only spend about $400!

the first day was indoor games all day until we had few games of floorbal..boring! but at night we went to watch fnding nemo. reviews were right. finding nemo is a great movie. *just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming* =) dori's so cute!!

lights out was at 12.30..we had to sleep on the stupid gymnastic mats. and i was nest to irenaeus. haha. we slept in 2e but i couldnt really sleep much 'cause the damn light from outside the classroom was too bright.

amazingly, i could actually wake up at 6.30. haha. we had morning jog on the second day. we went one huge round around dunman and tpjc, followed by another round around dunman. the rest of the day was games again, indoor games. we were supposed to have outdoor games but it rained after our morning jog. that night we had the farewell night from 6 to 9. today the morning jog was cancelled and we ended up playing soccer and tug of war all morning.

as for the farewell night, it was probably our most enjoyable evening! we sec 2s sang richard marx's right here waiting:

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

it was so touching! i didnt think i would cry but as we were singing, the graduating seniors like chun pei, ying ying, yi siew started crying and i couldnt help myself! our initial plan was to sing along first followed by our personal speeches and then we would sing an a capella version but by that time, we were all crying so much, our voices were breaking! for the last performance, the sec3 seniors gathered all of us to sing 'if we hold on together'..that was sweet too!:

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

and when i saw the seniors crying more, i just started crying all over again! even though we werent that close, im gonna miss the graduating seniors!

just came home few minutes ago..from downtown. was there with my family for supper sort of. hey, i saw buk..haha~ so tired..taking care of soujan so tiring. hes so energetic! i wanna go sleep....meanwhile, ~food for thought~

"There is always a little Madness in the mix. Rhythymic insanity. Life burning and howling, into countless nights. And weekdays plagued with... (misunderstood?) corruption. I do my best to comprehend! But it all gets a little blurred sometimes when visions float, real time across my eyes.Weaving structure into the mix. Delusional maybe, but reassuring all the same. Sometimes we need to feel in control of our madness to keep it spinning, to never let it stop. So we can keep it out of our minds, bring it into our hearts, and to just keep on dancin'."

Singapore Chinese Girls' school


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SCGS..gotta be kidding me.. *lame*

trained at kallang without coach today. kinda boring actually..ms cheng trained us from 8 to about 10.30 only. so short! then we, as in almost all the netball girls who had been training, went to kfc to discuss some netball camp stuff. 16, 17 and 18. first night we'll be going to watch a movie..finding nemo hopefully, 'cause i really really wanna watch that. just now, me and aqil actually planned to watch finding nemo but his family wants to go out..so does mine..so we didnt really have a choice.

second night, its gonna be a farewell for graduating seniors like chun pei, sherry, yi siew, ying ying and yen wei. we sec 2s thinking about making a fashion show where we imitate the graduating seniors. =) that should be fun.

anyways, gotta go get ready for a family outing....the only good thing: i get to see my baby cousin!!

*-:-* p E r s 0 n a L i n F o *-:-*

Full Name: ashwini rana
Single or Taken: *blush*
Sex: female
Birthdate (DD/MM/YY): 6 oct 89
Astrological Sign: libra
Siblings: only child =)
Hair Colour: dyed reddish-brown
Eye Colour: olive
Shoe Size: US 7
Height: last time i checked..approximately 161
Weight: last i check..49 kg
Any Personal Trademarks?: yeah..my dark skin colour..

*-:-* R e L a t i 0 n s H i p S *-:-*

Who are your top 3 best friends?: 1) melati. 2) gladyn. 3) bukhary?
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: *blush* maybe..
Still a virgin?: well, DUH!~

*-:-* F a S h i 0 n S t u F f *-:-*

Where is your favorite place to shop?: anywhere and everywhere
Do you think your fashion concept is cool?: not really
Favourite Brand(s): billabong, nike, adidas

*-:-* F a V o u R i t E s *-:-*

Colour: light blue
Number: 2
TV Programme: a lot?
Fast Food: macdonalds, long john
Subject in School?: english
CD or Tape?: CD
Animal(s): dogs

*-:-* T h E e X t r A S t u F f *-:-*

Any Pets?: not here in sg
Are you a smoker?: obvously not~
What kind of shampoo do u use?: follow me - with green tea extracts
How many TVs?: 3
What are your favourite songs for the moment?: anything by blessed union of souls and good charlotte
What do you want to be when you grow up?: no ambition
Who is the last person that called you?: melati..or was it syida.....
Where do you want to get married?: all planned..haha. arab or nepal
Honeymoon?: hawaii, spain
How many messenger buddies do you have on right now?: online - 15 not online - 135
if you could change anything about you, wad is it?: more patient
Given someone a bath?: yeah..baby cousin
Bungee jumped?: nope
Made yourself throw-up?: im not that desperate to lose weight
Gone skinny-dipping?: nope
Been in love?: been in love with love..but never been in love with someone
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: nope

*-:-* F i R s t T h i N g t H a t c 0 m E s T o M i N d *-:-*

Red: blood
Cow: moooo
Pig: pink
Yellow: explorers *hint²*
Bad: *blank*
Huge: ikmal's head

*-:-* w H i c H i S w 0 r s E ? *-:-*

Dumping your partner or being dumped?: being dumped
Snakes or Roaches?: roaches..gross little things..
Noisy kids or noisy pigs?: noisy PIGS
Being caught doin sumthin bad wif ur teacher or parents?: parents
Tripping in Orchard road while on a date with your crush or tripping on the way to the school stage to receive the 'most obedient student of the year' award'?: on the way to school stage

*-:-* f i N a L q U e S t i 0 n s *-:-*

Do you like filling these out?: nope
If you could be wif someone else for a day, who would it be?: melati or "explorers"
Gold or Silver?: silver
What do you have for breakfast in the morning?: plain bread
Who would you hate being locked in a room with?: jenson or sangeetha.. -bleaghz-
Who would you love being locked in a room with?: "explorers"
Are the questions very fun to answer or too personal?: depends lar..but tilting more towards fun
Do you wanna answer even MORE questions like this in the future?: maybe

hey, guess what? i went golfing on a driving range. haha. with my dad and his friends. and i like it.. i wanna go again next week. =) now i finally understand why my dad likes it. anyways, it's late..im tired. sweet dreams to myself..

the handphones have been found!!! yay!

you do have a reason to stay, you do have a reason not to stop seeking attention in silly ways and accept the attention you already receive. i may not be the reason but i'll tell you this, i can guarantee that i'm not the only one that thinks you're great! remember, good times are only good if you have bad times to compare them to...

*arghz!!!* i just lost my previous post which i spent almost an hour on with all the details of LTC!!! great. anyways,since i have so much time to kill..why not try again.......

first day/night:
went to school..assembled at about 7, where we were in our groups, and were asked to take our temperature..the usual stuff. and as expected, aqil "lost" his thermometer..again. haha. while waiting for the buses, we discussed our plans for the campfire night. [ speaking of plans for campfire night, sunday's meeting was quite okay..we came up with a script, though pathetic and humourous in a pervertic way. but then again, it wasnt really a group meeting. only me, nadiah 2b, raushan, terry and zabid went. after that i went bowling with irenaeus, syida, angeline and wan ling again..lost again.. wahhaha..i suck at bowling. on the way home, some certain events occurred, embarressing but made me very happy all the same. =) ] anyways..back to LTC. when the buses came, we travelled all the way to Labrador Training blah, blah, blah..whatever the name is..had to surrender items like electronic devices..sweets.. as soon as we put our bags in the bunks (i slept on the top bunk with lati below), we rushed off to the talk mr bernard was having at the hall. then came the ice breakers..boring as hell. and i got scolded by aqil for not sitting properly. haha.. always the same thing actually. lunch sucked..but afterwards, we had high elements. that was so fun!! i got to climb the rock wall and in some ways, i conquered my fear of heights.. =) then had feild cooking for dinner. some idiots threw rice into the drains and we got scolded like hell and all..but we still continued with the night activities. but in the middle of the night, 2am i must say, we had a fire drill and were forced to clean the drains.....

second day/night:
started off with p.t early in the morning..and then after breakfast we had low elements..only the water bombs were fun. another field cooking for lunch was all the instant noodles and as usual we were scolded and all..and everytime we were late to assemble, we were given pumping..then we had high elements again..i got to try almost all the rope courses..on the hanging logs, i almost felt as if my heart was gonna pop out..at night, after dinner, we had the campfire. it was so fun! and my group's performance wasnt as bad as another group's..haha. during the campfire, i noticed that aqil was squinting all the way. it was so obvious that he couldnt see..but him being stubborn, even when i asked him if he cold see clearly, he kept insisting he could see. haha. and lati's group performance was soo cute.. especially krishandi. he had balloons as fake breasts and he purposeli tripped on it..it was so hilarious. after all the performances and singing, we had the friendship dance and after our reflections, we got our camp t-shirts..mine is huge. haha. and so is almost everyone else's.

last day:
that was yesterday..another p.t followed by area cleaning. after the area cleaning, some people found stuff left behind in our bunk and our whole bunk were scolded and punished. when i got up from the pumping, my knee was bleeding. then we went back to school for orienteering. the 6 groups were further split into 2..atlantis and solomon. atlantis went around pasir ris an solomon went around tampines. and we (atlantis) won and my group was the first one back in school. haha. while waiting for all the groups to come back, i saw buk and all the 4e people on the second level..he was there for his literature enrichment. lati and i both agree that with spectacles mohsen looks quite okay. haha. cant wait to tell gladyn. so atlantis was given 6 buckets of water bombs and solomon was given 2 and right there in the parade square we had a water bomb fight. haha. even the instuctors joined in and i got half wet. i pity melati, yesterday was unlucky for her..musa smacked her on the front at close range and jhon lester's water bomb hit her exactly below and it didnt burst so she was sort of injured. haha. afterwards, we had a photo-taking session. just before we were going home, they returned our stuff to us..and instructers lost the handphones we surrendered..aiz-

i miss LTC already. wish i could go back. but then again..we still owed instructors 200 over push ups. haha. just now dewi called me to ask about irenaeus birthday present..and she told me that the instructors still havent found our handphones..and later maybe i'll go out to get irenaeus birthday present.

waiting for my phone..........

now I tell you openly
you have my heart so don't hurt me.
you're what I couldn't find.
a totally amazing mind,
so understandin and so kind
you're everything to me

hey, the holidays have begun! =) past few days, i been quite busy with netball and all.

thursday:
went to school but forgot to bring that stupid SARS form. peters of course, wasnt happy lar so he rambled on and on. spent pretty much the whole day doing nothing and then after school, we had training.

friday:
got our report books back. *arghz* i didnt do well!! level position: 35. i "deproved" (if there even is such a word). and i cannot believe that sarah actually got 8 in level. that hctib! but i got 3 trophies for the completed sports day events. =) we had to take the prizes from the hall and it was so crowded. when i was going up, i could hear the crowd but i was too scared to actually look at the crowd. that was some scary shit. but i did see buk. haha. then during training, coach wanted to see our results. me and syida had gone home and we forgot to bring back our report books. *sighs* i realise that every training, all the stupid little things i do seem to get more and more on coach's nerve. who could blame her? anyways, at night, buk left singapore. going to somewhere in malaysia. so lucky! if i left the country, id have to re-apply to come back to dunman! ridiculous!~

today:
actually, i wanted to sleep all day but somehow i woke up at 9 plus and i couldnt go back to sleep. most of the LTC groups had a meeting today..but mine didnt. so just now i discussed this with nadiah 2b and we decided that we'd hold a meeting tomorrow, calling all the people whose numbers we know. LTC organisers suck! of the 20 names originally shortlisted for my group, they still havent realised that 1 has backed out and 2 others dont even knoe that they're in LTC. dumb people. about 5 plus i went out with my parents to meet aunts and all for dinner. we ate at some fancy shmancy malay restaurant. the food was great actually. =) before that, i managed to buy some stuff. shoes, jeans and a sports bra. i needed that. haha.

anyways, now im home and watching this stupid movie. something about an elevator being haunted by ghosts or something. lame. just now i talked to aqils sister, shahira. shes very pretty actually and very soft spoken - very likable.

tomorrow im gonna go to my group's LTC meeting at tampines library at 12. its lame lar but at least i got raushan there to have fun with. after that, i'll be meeting irenaeus and God knows who else to bowl. again. oh yeah..during the holidays, 2a gonna have an outing on the 17 - bowling. too much of it around. then i must pack for LTC camp. btw, there's a netball camp on the 16, 17 and 18. my holidays suck.

hectic holiday, coming right up.

i dont have the perfect smile
maybe im just too shy
so what you see is what you get
i have my own style

came home about 1 hour ago. i was thinking id hate to do the hydroponics as CIP but we had fun. i have to say, joo khai is exactly like shu wei. bit off somewhere but he was still damn funny. haha. he wanted to squat down and uraina was standing next to him and he persistently asked her to squat down also. when she did, he said "i dont want you accusing me of peeping or something" wahaha..he doesnt even know that hes so lame and all.

after CIP, we actually wanted to go see the soccer match between 2d & 2f or 3d vs. 3e but ncc air had aero-modelling so the soccer matches werent at the field. btw, they really should make a ncc air gerls unit!! so many gerls wanna join it. so me, ren, cleo and clarion went to pasir ris park to watch 2d vs 2f. the game was, to put it mildly, pathetic.. we were late so they were at half time when we got there. but when they started playing, within a few minutes, taufiq was down. a so-called cramp. i got bored and almost fell asleepin clarion's lap. haha. then, as it turns out, aqil has musa's phone and musa is so worried about it. i think he got some specific sms-es or something that he rather not let people see..think luurrrve messages.

now im gonna lax..training again tomorrow. actually too tired to train.....

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS LYRICS

"Swing, Swing"

Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new

[Chorus]
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again

Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)

[Chorus fades till end]
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again

tired.

Red/Green/Blue:
To you, the world is logical. Everything happens
for a reason, life is scientific. You like to
find solutions. I doubt you needed to take this
quiz in order to realize this.

What color do you see the world in?
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Silly; hehehohohaha

What facial expression are you?
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Damsel in Distress: It's not your fault your always
in the wrong place at the wrong time! But hey,
the hero always saves you in the end and you
live happily ever after.

Who do you play in in a typical movie?
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wahaha..lame but fun. sleepy... -_-

i got selected for leadership training camp!!! looking forward to it. =)

todae: normal. met mr lim in the morning again. *crapp*
syid and me thought wanna go detention today. in the end, stupid councillors started detention early and we didnt know. we'll probably go this wed.
this wed got CIP for 2a netballers. hydrophonics something. not looking forward to that.
aqil is blind. aqil is blind. aqil is blind.

Friend, i hate to tell you this,
But our friendship just cant last.
All the times we've shared
Have faded into the past.

I told you this would happen,
Our great friendship was bound to end.
Though i know you really care,
I dont consider you as a friend.

Please dont try to disagree,
Just try to understand.
You know that time can change people,
Like the tide changes the sand.

Our friendship has been lovely,
But you said it wasnt true.
For i look at you in a different way,
Because now ive fallen in love with you..