watching mc battle on mtv..blind guy participating, and he's good. haha. or maybe judges were being biased or sth. ppl do tend to go easy on disabled ppl, as if they gotta lower their standards just cuz of a disability and im just crapping. mc battles just diss each other only anyways. im soo boreddd.. watched big fish yest. its a nice movie. haha..perfect fer retards like me. it was all exaggerated and all..but in the end, somehow, the story makes sense in a weird way.

The Last Song
This may be the last thing that i write for long
Can you hear me smiling when i sing this song
For you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now i'm gone, just try and stop me now.

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

i got so retarded today. r.e.t.a.r.d.e.d.n.e.s.s prc like not on form today. hmmx..aft game was dancing with syid? yar..i dunno what happened ta me today. won tk..and dammit. st hils and damai tied. st hils was winning but last 5 secs damai tied. we're all thinking this was planned..cuz now..damai tops the group i think..which would mean, we're gonna meet tkgs again? ahh..whatever, cross the hurdle when it comes.

totally failed e maths btw..haha..1/25. bleaghs- recess damn shiok. ren bought hotcakes in the morning and we were eating it at the new block area..should do it more often..haha. then had bio practical on enzymes. and we were playing with the liver enzymes reacting with hydrogen peroxide. so disgusting but fun lar..haha. hmmx..really dont feel like taking part in sprts day anymore..so far, shortlisted fer running 800m and 1500m. isnt that like one aft the other. and total of 5 events..would die.

*screams* omg..we won st hilda's!! cant believe it. felt so..wow. can feel that feeling of euphoria sweeping ovr, esp aft the whole thing. =] but dammit. penalty shot frm far aft the final whistle..agn! bleaghs- note ta self-let yean ping take it!!!! yar..other than that..think we did really well. aft the game even coach hugged us. so happie..now can watch the damai/st hilda's game. both wanna get in, cannot wrk hand in hand ta purposely kick us out. shld be a verrryy interesting match. k, enough.

go prc!! ferget abt today..rem how yal lost ta plmgs but stil won st hilda's and got through? well..history has a way of repeating itself.. =]

on the way home was smiling madly ta myself..haha..too happie. then i rem what i said during the prc game..what if dmn and prc combined? omg..how cool would that be? we'd be damn strong mann..haha. then i also rem, last time when we heard coach was thinking of taking another team we were so sadded..lyk she didnt want us anymore but now, its so fun..kae im crapping. side effect of euphoria.

e maths test was a killer. failed a maths..not much hope of passing e maths either. lalalla~ whatevrr..

omg..still hurting ovr yest. went ta practise shooting frm that exact same spot whr the penalty was to be taken frm and the freakin ball went in nothing-but-net in the first shot!! arghs- i choked, simple as that..aftwrds went ta bbt shop with some nballers..crapped till 5plus. ah,nothing much. my life is borringgg..

dammit im so pissed off at myself. why the heck did i stress myself out and miss my shots. sick mann. worse still..last damn penalty shot to tie the game i panicked too much..aiz- then yean ping said the penalty shot that spot was further than where it was supposed to be. do we always end up facing unfair umpires?

make it worse..3rd quarter i started shivering..felt damn cold, even aft game. everybody was so sadded. burst into tears as soon as the ball left my hand cuz i knew it wasn goin in. we had a lead lor..why did we panic. fuck it. we will beat st hilda's and move on. and just like last yr, we will meet damai again and beat them in the finals!!!

mann..overslept for training. took a cab and rushed down. trained..auntie julie corected me a lot..lets just hope i can rem fer tmr's game. *dont panic!! think is cuz i haven fully recover, aft training head was like heavy? got like a continuous ringing in my head..got home and straight away went ta shower, finish homewrk, played a bit of guitar..slept from 3 till 7 fer dinner. ya. im a pig. =]

soon imma go do some mental prep. make sure shooting movements are smooth. relaxx..make myself calm dwn. mental prep mental prep mental prep...

weeaaakk all over..damn the medicine. slept the whole day, woke up with throat still the same.. pumpkin!! its a real nice movie..abt one of these stuck up bimbos who in the end falls fer a retarded guy. kinda sweet really. i like the soundtrack! =]

Falling From Grace
You make me satisfied
You only want to ride
But that's alright by me
We happen to be free
For what tomorrow brings
No peace and broken wings
It may have been so good
But now it's understood
'Twas just a night

If I could tear my heart
And keep it miles apart
From love of beast or man
And never give a damn
If I could learn to lie
And never show my pride
I'd be just like the rest
Be someone I detest

I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun to shine

Love...
Destroys the best of us
Then leaves the rest of us
Thinking perhaps we'll die
Yet still we stay alive
Lost in a hollow frame
With lonely tears remain
Not knowing our life's worth
Dragging around the earth
How false the light

You make me satisfied
You only want to ride
But that's alright by me
We happen to be free
And if we fall from grace
At least we had a taste
Of something more than this
Unresolved black abyss

I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun
I'm only looking for the sun to shine

mann..pathetic!!!evrybody was having fun playing and i was sitting down there, bored as heck. but was still fun lar..make more friends with prcs gerls..hmmx..sun got training. haha. =]

im siiccckkk..ya. just got back from doc's. should be wei ling pass ta me..shall go down ta kallang watch the girls train. yep. im bored. juniors lost yesterday. wasted. they.could.have.won!

im so freaked out right now..watched st. hilda's and prcs. omg..nerve wrecking! haha..shout till my soar throat become worse ler. but prc won!! haha..but because they still couldnt top their group..st hil's still champ of that group and guess what..dmn got the worst draw..st hilda's, damai and tkss..just what we didnt wanna get. aahhhhh~

cant rem much..nothing special i guess? watched prcs play after our own game. after the game finish, could see opposite feelings in the 2 teams. mann. prcs really gotta work harder and win tomorrow's game..was shouting for them and some ppl comment i dont seem ta support lidat during our own games. lallala~

argh- missed gothika today. was being a nice senior and sparring with juniors..so guilty. sher waited so long then in the end nvr go watch movie. sorrie..

friday the 13th!! think im a freak. supposedly unlucky days are usually the better days. =] got to school only started giving out gifts..haha. gave clarion this toy cow that actually moos..and she was playing with it during morning assembly..haha. finish the pledge suddenly one moo..haha..ya. =]

then had game with east spring. i dont mean to sound evil but i didnt expect east spring to be good? but they were actualy not bad. 44-13. coach not happy. said we proved we not as good as tkgs but that's nonsense cause tkgs goal difference with east spring is 41-16. we did better!! aiz- but if we told her that she'd say we're complaicent..seems this year east zone, winning doesn't feel like winning at all. unlike last year..aiz-

bedok south game sucked yesterday. but i guess its cause coach was damn pissed for no reason..but once the game started she cooled down lar..then today went to watch juniors game after physics test. only me and ren. we're such nice seniors. haha..they won! haha..against springfield. last quarter had to change some players cause of cramps and all and we could immediately see the effect mann. c div combination so easy to figure out..

hmmx..got back bio paper. did quite ok? mrs sim is stressing us..she says every test she'll rank us according to score. jeez- and managed to get through geog also. =] but just as we finally got tests over with..mrs lim announced that we're having another a maths test soon. so sickening..me and ren were complaining about her to mr teo after the game..haha.

damn..juniors also lost to tkgs. sadded..mr teo's dream to beat tkgs sisnt come true again..they also lost by 4. anyways..had hep b blood test!! haha..was the first one to go and watching the blood get sucked into the vacuum of the container was sick..haha. damn..cant wait to get the hep b immunisation over with.

so we won today. means we can get to second round lar since we've played our 2 toughest matches? but heck..it doesnt feel like a win. first quarter really did what we did at bedok yesterday..but somehow slacked as the game progressed.

aiz-tomorrow wont be able to watch juniors..got some dumb geography remedial nonsense. afterwards running. 2.4 with timing. damn long since i ran to maintain stamina. then just now during bio, ren go and cut my hand..with scissors. was holding the "plant cell" while she was securing it to explain turgor pressure dunno what nonsense and she go cut. but i must be damn thick skinned cause i didnt bleed even though the cut is deep..haha.

as for tests..i passed a/e maths!!haha. it wouldnt have made a difference if i failed also. id still be just as happy and retarded. haha..tomorrow got chem test. phy and chi also coming up..dad saying he beginning to worry cause i keep going out..training..and not studying, but ive never been the type to sit down and study. so no diff lar..

yesterday was fun..haha. ya..went dinner with family at fisherman's village there. eating by the sea..so shiok. but the food damn ex. think 200 gone in one night..haha. but its only cause my cousin gonna fly off soon. going back to study. ya..then afterwards went to the 2e bbq.

quite pathetic actually..haha. when i got there people were just standing around. heard they took 2hrs to start the fire. was playing truth or dare then clarion said something lar..but she got her just desserts? haha..then rest of the night was playing musa's guitar and crapping. should have brought extra clothes..was so tempting to jump into the water!!haha. they stopped cooking pretty early..round 10.30. we all sat down share ghost stories.

got home 12.45 dad was pissed..got that stern face but after a lecture he asked how the bbq and as i was telling him what we did, he was smiling! haha..my dad's so nice..ya..then got training later..bedok. please let it end on time.

mannn..training was definitely a surprise..im sure all of us are happy about today. haha..started out pretty normal, getting scolded and all..but after playing with tpjc, coach like gave us a prep talk. and woah- it really made me happy. think everyone feels the same. =] and we were all shocked that coach said fuck and was pointing middle finger..so sudden, so unexpected..hahaha..

as fer the prep part, she really has lots of faith in us. said we're a talented bunch that can easily take on any team this year. =] yeah..feeling so inspired..so confident right now. haha..times like these, im really thankful she's our coach.

ya..and then fer chem..damn. spent 2 nights in a row rushing to complete the damn book and in the end.."oh, didn't you hear? mrs low extended the deadline" jeez- rush fer nothing. aiz- hmmx..after training me and ren went op sale...haha. we are such shopaholics.

im so not happy. arghs- nahmind..

anyways...ya..did my duty fer today's games..halfway stopped to watch prcs. think they won..ren was supporting gk, wenna i think. she say wenna so poor thing. but she defend very nice..then the gd and c look alike! kae..im crapping. but one thing we all happy about, damai and sac tied!!haha..no more of their seniors who were scary looking. now least they don't look as terrifying.

afterwards..ya..nothing much lar..just gotta finish the damn chem. and rearrange the time table for the duties. aiz- got tests tmr also. speaking of tests..my first few tests were horrible. a/e maths/geog..think will fail. aiz-sadded..

im so stuffed!!haha..after training went to pizza hut..haha. =] training was like..okay lar..very short cause of the rain. mr teo brought ian again..soo cute. haha..

ya..hmmx..ren also getting hooked onto blink!haha..anyways, changed the song to i miss you..its much nicer. and i like the drums at the beginning..i wanna learn drums mann..=]

I Miss You
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)